what am i doing here? my dissertation is NEVER going to get done at this rate. honestly. Gloria. stop. reassess life.
i sometimes wonder how on earth i manage to get myself into these situations where people just come to me to ask for help. do i seem like a helpful person. not really. am i clever? most certainly not. why? i really am quite a stupid person. for example....my chinese in not good (especially mandarin), i hardly have any life experience...i.e i have never moved out of my house...how am i suposed to know about bills etc. i've never had any problems with immigration. never had to sign on the dole cuz i've pretty much always had a job. never had any reason to talk to the council. i've never really had an major health issues or any encounters with the police, so i don't know anything about that either. so, why oh why do i end up interpreting for people when i don't even know their language that well, helping people to find a house or to sort their house out, or phone the council/jobcentre/home office.
it's not that i mind, cuz i really don't. it's just that when you put things into perspective. i'm really quite stupid.
i need to learn to STOP.
i wish that i could learn to be one of those people who could just spend all day praying. how great would that be.
hey, i just made that up right now!! haha....
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