so much for being patient and kind
i'm already fed up at work and the way things are going...i sometimes wonder just what is the point of what i'm doing. gave someone his indefinite leave to remain papers today, yet one of my best mates has been waiting 10 years. why is life so unfair.

I hate the way i work, i hate my work. why don't i just leave? noone really cares anyway, do they? who am i to say anything about anything? i just need the guts to leave.

God, give me a sign that i should go. give me a sign if you want me to stay. I'm so frustrated. why oh why do i do all these projects? what's it all in aid of. noone comes....i try to tell people, but what is the use....