i feel a bit stupid at work really. i have absolutely no idea what i'm meant to do. i have no idea what info i'm meant to know, and so i'm keeping my mouth shut so I don't put my foot in it. i also don't know how much people presume that i know. and i don't want to ask. sigh. i'm in a stupid trap thats not going to take me anywhere. man, ...i so need an interview. i need some new challenge to do. been stuck in this stupid little rut for way too long. life sucks.

wanna be fully of life. want the glory of God to shine out of me. but, seems almost impossible to me at the moment....

For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness,"made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
2 Corinthians 4 v 6-12