Friday 28 December 2007

empty

i feel sad.
why doesn't Jon like me? I really don't get it. What have I actually done.? I just don't get it

Thursday 27 December 2007

dream

my dream....
to open a coffee shop. not a normal one.sigh, I wish I knew how to start a business. Wish I had the potential to start one. I need some ideas:
name: Hearty Indugence
food:
breakfast-american pancakes, french toast, both served with bacon or fruit, chocolate croissants, yohurt' fondue' with fruit
lunch- bread, jacket potato, soup, noodle/pasta, cheese fondue, chips
dinner- fried rice, pizza, garlic bread, nachos
supper- classic English puds, ice-cream, cake, cheesecake, chocolate fondue, non-alcoholic cocktail
decor: sit on floor, take off shoes, candles
i'll never get there, but I can dream

Sunday 26 August 2007

All by myself

i'll be all byself for the next couple of weeks...gunna be a little strange, I don't quite know what i'm going to do with myself.

Monday 23 July 2007

another week

so, it's a new week, a new challenge. There is nothing in me that's making me want to work. I'm at work and what am I doin?sigh. I am so lazy.

Had fun yesterday. It was good to go to church. Didn't think that I would say that, but I have. Ended up being pretty late, so had to park in an awkward place. Was meant to be having my car washed, but they missed it out (nevermind). Missed the entire first part of the worship, but they a really really long response thing a dead short message. But it was good. Taught Sunday school to a group of 8 kids, ranging from 2-11..haha it was quite funny. Slipped on a stupid pen and now have a huge bruise on my leg. typical.

Well, I think that I'm going it to give it at least this week to see whether I should stay working here. I'm so bored. Then again, I'm bored very easily!

Saturday 21 July 2007

wishing


i wish i was somewhere else
i wish i was in HK
i wish i could just disappear into thin air and leave
but i can't
have to learn to live
i took this picture on the way to HK, it's of the Humber Estuary as we were crossing the Humber Bridge at like 4.30am. crazy, but it's kinda beautiful. sigh, wish i was on that journey again.
it's so depressing here in UK, in my home, so depressing being me. God...how can I snap out of it? I really don't know